And My Shrink Said…

TTV - Psychiatrist - Shrink - 1

OK, so yesterday due to my last weekend binge drinking madness a couple of weeks ago, I had a session with my shrink Dr. C. I did get to talk to him about a pattern that I’ve noticed, right before I go on a weekend binge. I explained to him, that first I start to feel sorry about myself and then it goes straight downhill from there. As a matter of fact, it gets to the point, were I go on what I like to call a “personal pity party”. I start to ask myself about what I have done with my life, then it goes from there to shit that I haven’t accomplish. I also mentioned to him, that I decided to give Risperidone another chance.

Dr. C told me that I must keep in mind, that maybe the high amount of racing thoughts that I have been experiencing lately, are connected to my bipolar II, OCD and me stopping the Risperidone a while back. I have to say, that I never looked at it in such a way. I also mention that I still feel sleepy in the morning, due to the Risperidone, but after the effect is gone, my mind is at peace. He reminded me, that the medication not only will help me with my racing thoughts, but also with my depression. I’ll see him again in a couple of weeks, which is good.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!

When I Drink My Blog Suffers

TTV - DRUNK - 1.gif

First things first my homies and homettes! Wherever you are on this crazy planet of ours, good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night. As always, enjoy it to the fullest and don’t let nobody mess it up for you no matter what goes down.

On a BUI (Blogging Under the Influence) note! Even though I don’t blog for fame and or money, but like I always tell my shrink Dr. C, I just do it as a kind of therapy. For a while now, I’ve noticed that when I go on a weekend binge, my blog suffers. Why? Well first, because I stop posting and second, because I start making drastic changes, without actually thinking or even knowing what the hell is it that I want or I’m looking for.

OK, so after my last weekend binge, as usual, I was mad at myself for fucking up yet once again. So I deleted all of my posts, then for the next couple of days, I was thinking about deleting the entire blog and walking away from it all. Which I have done many, many times before. Luckily I came to my senses and as you can see, here we are. The thing is, that after the alcohol is out of my system, I feel like shit about myself, so I take it out on the wrong thing, my crazy therapy blog.

With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!