OK, so yesterday due to my last weekend binge drinking madness a couple of weeks ago, I had a session with my shrink Dr. C. I did get to talk to him about a pattern that I’ve noticed, right before I go on a weekend binge. I explained to him, that first I start to feel sorry about myself and then it goes straight downhill from there. As a matter of fact, it gets to the point, were I go on what I like to call a “personal pity party”. I start to ask myself about what I have done with my life, then it goes from there to shit that I haven’t accomplish. I also mentioned to him, that I decided to give Risperidone another chance.
Dr. C told me that I must keep in mind, that maybe the high amount of racing thoughts that I have been experiencing lately, are connected to my bipolar II, OCD and me stopping the Risperidone a while back. I have to say, that I never looked at it in such a way. I also mention that I still feel sleepy in the morning, due to the Risperidone, but after the effect is gone, my mind is at peace. He reminded me, that the medication not only will help me with my racing thoughts, but also with my depression. I’ll see him again in a couple of weeks, which is good.
With that said! I am Audi 5000 y’all!